It's been quite a while...
Moving knocked me out of my rythem and I'm just now getting back to a somewhat normal routine.
I say somewhat... Because I think I'm at a place again where I need to rethink what I'm doing. I'm frustrated that over the past year I've only gotten 2 chapters into the book I'm learning from.
I'm happy with the progress I have made... But I get so easily side tracked. And I'm making this WAY more complicated then it needs to be. I have all these ideas and yet I don't follow through with most of them. Start / Stop / Start / Stop seems to be my routine.
The process of drawing and blogging was about me learning. Yet I pressure myself to post daily... For an audience... One which really doesn't exist. Do you exist? And more importantly... Does it really matter to me that you do? Who am I really drawing for?
There is a part of me that would love for lots of people to see my stuff and give me feedback. But that takes TONS of work... And those artists out there who do all that work deserve the feedback. Right now... I'm no where near that stage.
I think ultimately where I am is here...
1) Time to "blow up" the website again.
2) Draw daily and not overthink it
3) Get though the book I'm learning from
4) Worry less about the posting of content and get to creating it.
5) Simplify my processes...
*laughs* I'm putting this out there... Knowing that most likely I'm the only one reading it... And that when it's "blow up" time... It's going away anyways.
When I come back the focus is on me. The blog posts... What I post... When I post... Where I post... Are about me documenting what I'm doing... How I feel about it and looking at the progress I've made.
If others come along and find it... I hope they enjoy it and provide feedback. But I need to strip the expection away that I'll have an "audience". I'm using that as an excuse to not draw... It's making things more complicated.
I don't need all that...
I just need to draw... And enjoy the process.
-- Eric AKA Voldare